Hey everyone. I am just going to apologize in advance for the length of this blog. It's been a while since I have really updated about me - and just me. So Here's where I am at:

Life has had its ups and downs. I lost a good friend.....because of some reason(s) I may not fully ever understand. I have been extremely hurt by this person too, but at the same time I still care for them. I guess because I have such a close attachment with people it's hard to let go completely. It's also just in me. Thats just how I am - caring, and always wanting to make things work out whatever the circumstance is. However, this situation, hasnt been worked out and not quite sure it ever will be. Right now though, the best thing for me and them is to keep our distance.

Not only has that been difficult, but just work had been stressful for a while (not stressful like my past jobs, but just stressful - we all have those days right?) I have also dealt with just feeling lonely since pretty much all my friends live out of town. So really i have been going through a lot of emotions and finding out who I am.

But through all this pain, struggle, confusion, heartache, concern, love, frustrations etc, I have gained strength. Strength in many areas. I have realized that even though i am an emotional person and I am sensitive and sometimes might not have a lot of confidence in myself or others. I have learned that I am STRONG. I am strong because I am moving foward but still love this person. I am strong because I am making an effort to get up every morning and go to work. Thank God I HAVE a job! I have been blessed with some amazing new people in my life and have been in closer contact with those who are out of town.

God has given me the strength and support from many friends and just to me, personally, to move on and get past everything. I am to the point now where I want to move foward. I want to change. I want to continue to be positive. I want to continue to Love even when others dont love me. I want to continue to do my best at work even when I am not always told I am doing a good job. I want to change ME. I found that going to the river and walking/..jogging and clearing my mind at the river and waterside helped me a lot!!!

I noticed that when I stopped, i became sad again, i started to feel crappy again. I made the decision hands down the other week I am goingto do the P90X which my good friend Johnathan recommended to me!! (THANKS JOHNATHAN!!! LOVE YA!!!)

So I did it. I bought it last Thursday and should be receiving it in the mail tomorrow. even though I have not received it yet, I started an hour workout last night. I walked/jogged for 30 minutes and then did aerobic/..balance training on the wii fit. I can honestly say i LOVE TO SWEAT!!! haha It made me feel sooo good!.

I also got up this morning at 6 AM with the roomie and we walked/jogged a mile! For those who know me - yall know I am NOT a morning person. SO this was HUGE for me. But we did it. yes I am sleepy but it was so worth it and my way of thinking today getting through a monday was so much better. i was more positive. I was less stressed and Its been great!

So with all that said, this evening I was looking at videos on youtube about the P90X and I came across this video. It was a coach for p90x and then i decided to look through his other videos and one in particular caught my eye. It was him and a kid sitting by the fireplace with a guitar singing. I took a moment and was like ah what the heck ill check it out and I am so glad I did.

This song is so true. This song brought a smile to my face and is definitely going to be my motivation each day. Not only for me personally as in emotions and attitude, but also physically.

We only get ONE SHOT - and I am going to make the most of it. Are you?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EL43EuFMfUU&feature=player_embedded

Let's FORGIVE. Let's LOVE. Lets think POSITIVE. Let's LOVE. Let's CARE for others. Let's make the most of EVERYDAY!!! and again LETS LOVE....for we only have....ONE SHOT!!!!

Where has this year gone?

It's hard to believe that it is almost July 2009!! I mean seriously where has the time gone? It seems like just yesterday I was ringing in the near year with Justin Smith and the Folk Hop Band!!! Now it's mid summer and miserably hot!

So with all that said....this year has been quite a year. It has been good in a lot of ways and it's been tough in a lot of ways. I truly believe I have grown as a person. I have become a stronger person. I have experienced new things, new people, new ways, new beginnings!!

But through all those times....I have made it through. I am where I am and I am doing pretty darn good! At this moment though, I will admit I am quite stressed. I have a lot of work to do at work. Not that it's hard work to do, but its just so much of it and I feel like there's never enough time to do it and no matter how hard you try to get caught up, you are always going to be behind in one area or another.

I know this time will pass soon but its just a hassle to get through it. I am trying to stay strong though and look at it in a positive way. I am doing my best, I am putting my all into it and I can only do so much as one person. I also look at it this way: I am thankful I have a job right now. :)

So yea really I have just been busy with work. I have been still involved with music, as usual, and going to as many shows as I can. Music is my life. I continue to enjoy checking out new music and discovering new artists. It makes me super happy!

I have also been spending some time at the beach and the mountains. I spent some time at my parents mountain house which I hope to have a get together with some of you soon one weekend. I have also spent time camping, both in the mountains and at the beach. It's just something about camping that just makes me forget everything at home. All the stress, work, and whatnot.

I am always up for a camping trip and looking for new places to check out! So if anyone is up for a camping trip, don't hesitate to holla! Oh and also about the mountain house! I had so much fun with Faith last time!

Well I need to get some rest now before work tomorrow so I can make it through the day! But Ill keep yall informed on how everything is going and post some pictures soon!

Look forward to hearing from yall soon!

Love,

Kelly

Miles away...yet close to the heart!!!

Hey everyone. I decided to start this blog to keep yall posted on whats going on my way. We are all spread all over the place here in SC and some of you are out of state! It is so hard to keep in touch with all of you and doing the email thing. I would love to send each of you a personal email and keep in touch that way but with so many of you being away it's difficult to do that with everyone.

So be sure to check back here for frequent updates, including pictures, on whats going on in my world. I know it's not as personal but atleast yall can check in on me anytime yall want to. I hope though, that yall will continue to keep me informed on how yall are doing despite me not doing the emails! :)

So with all that said...stay tuned....and please keep in touch!!

I miss all of you so much and love yall so much!!!

Love,
Kelly